It is often said that dreams are manifestations of the subconscious; I find that very plausible. As if spending every waking moment being reminded that I have yet to find a job is not enough, I am dreaming about them in my sleep too.
I have always had the ability to remember my dreams pretty well, though I am not sure that’s a gift.
I am back in Singapore, but instead of returning to my parents’ home, I go to my grandmother’s. “You’re back,” she says, happy to see me return, and I said, “Yea, but I will have to go back soon.”
“You should call your parents and let them know,” she says.
“Ok, I will do that later.”
And then I procrastinated by going grocery shopping. Being back home, I need not scrimp and save when it came to shopping to feed myself. I did not have to forgo buying meat because it was a tad expensive, I did not have to buy the hardiest vegetables and produce so that they last in the fridge the longest. I could sense the temptation to just embrace this purchasing-power-freedom.
I made it home, and then I called my mother’s mobile phone, instead of my father’s, but a bad connection forced me to call the house’s landline instead.
“Mom, I’m back.”
“That’s great. When did you return?”
“Earlier this morning,” I lied; in the dream I returned last night. “I’m at grandma’s now.”
“Ok, will you come over for dinner later tonight?”
“How were things in the States? How was the flight?”
“Er, we’ll talk more when I go over. See ya later.”
I could sense that my father was there in that room when I was talking, and it was an uneasy feeling.
The dream ended, I never got to go over to meet my parents for dinner. Maybe I didn’t want to.